- I have often seen you at court and thought how handsome you are. There is a melancholy aspect to your looks that I find intriguing. But it’s probably only mental vacancy.
- I hope not.
"I could have loved a man like you." Her eyes are sad but a smile graces her beautiful face. She has flowers in her hair, a simple coiffure for a woman who will have to work from now on.
Athos woke up, startled. Her words won’t go away, they haunt him in his sleep at night and crawl into his consciousness in the middle of the day. Unwanted memories. Was it not Aramis the one with a penchant for women? Now, whenever Athos is not consumed by thoughts of revenge for her, his mind only conjures images of la Comtesse de Larroque. No, not la Comtesse, Ninon. Another trait they share: to the word, la Comtesse de Larroque was dead, and le Comte de la Fére did not exist anymore. Two people running away from their past. They had both been living an idyll, a life too good to be true. And then, a bit by choice and a bit because there is no other choice for people like them, they are banished from the places that had brought them both happiness and agony. A bedroom, a library. So many ghosts that still needed to be chased away.
Athos got up from his pallet, stretched his muscles, and stared at the small mirror on the wall in front of him. The man staring back had bloodshot eyes, and a beard longer than he remembered. A single white hair on his left temple had appeared. The life of a musketeer might make you feel younger but it does not stop the clock from ticking, old man. So much time spent drinking, so much self recrimination for what might have been if only he… If only.
Would Ninon be another ‘if only’ in his life? If only she had not been his life at all. If only he had made himself see behind the rebellious side of Ninon, if only that had not reminded him of her. But, then, what would he have done? Followed her? Lived in sin with her? And do what? What life was there for him if not that of a musketeer?
But man does not live forever. And a life regretting does not bring peace.
Athos was not certain what had made him decide to go look for her, he only knew nothing else made sense. He wanted to see her, to see if the spark between them had not been a dream after all.
Finding her will not be easy, of course.
"I will not be silenced. But, I promise, you will not hear my voice."
And a powerful voice can always be heard, no matter how softly it whispers.
(to be continued
Comments and suggestions are welcomed. If I have made any mistake, feel free to message me and point it out, I will correct them as soon as possible. Whenever you see ‘she’ or ‘her’ in italics I am referring to Milady de Winter- Athos cannot find it in himself to speak or think her name.
Get To Know Me Meme - Top 3 OTPs (in no particular order)
“You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight and a half years ago. Dare not say that a man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant.”
Anne Elliot and Frederick Wentworth from Persuasion (Jane Austen)
Death Comes To Pemberley - Anna Maxwell Martin is Elizabeth Darcy
Elizabeth Darcy - Death Comes to Pemberley
Get To Know Me Meme - Top 3 Favourite Films (in no particular order)
"Bright star, would I were stedfast as thou art—
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like nature’s patient, sleepless Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
Of pure ablution round earth’s human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
Of snow upon the mountains and the moors—
No—yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,
Pillow’d upon my fair love’s ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever—or else swoon to death.”
Bright Star (Jane Campion, 2009)
Get To Know Me Meme - Top 3 Favourite Films (in no particular order)
"All Sicilian expression, even the most violent, is really a wish for death. Our sensuality, wish for oblivion. Our knifings and shootings, a hankering after extinction. Our laziness, our spiced and drugged sherbets, a desire for voluptuous immobility, that is… for death again."
The Leopard (Luchino Visconti, 1963)
Aphrodite & Ares - All's fair in love and war.
We have all sinned, Mr. Darcy, and we cannot look for mercy without showing it in our lives.
The heat was unbearable. Beggars crowded the streets of King’s Landing, desperately following the shadows of the tallest buildings as the sun moved in the sky. Gendry was grateful for having been an apprentice smith in his youth because, while constantly on the move this past ten years, he had always managed to feed himself and even to help some poor souls. There had been a time when his dreams were filled with images of brave knights, when he believed glory was within his reach. Pain and humiliation found him instead- through the sea, straight to the lair of a red witch. The memory of his weakness, when the lust of youth became a memento of his father’s blood rushing in his veins, still made him feel like gagging. He never speaks unless called to do so, never consorts with prostitutes or any other kind of woman. The only liberty allowed to him is the pleasure coming from his creations, from the hard work, from the feeling that every drop of sweat drains the shame and unworthiness of his nature from his body. Working in the smithy was a mean to survive and a ritual of atonement. No thoughts were crowding his mind when suddenly- the hammer in his right hand posed just above his head, ready to free the blow that would mould the steel on the anvil- a breeze made him stop. It was fresh and sharp, like the feeling of the wind on your skin when you are coming out of the water. Dawn had just broken and there was no reason for him to abandon his work and leave but, for a moment, the walls of the forge seemed to be closing down on him and all he could think of was this sudden need to run and reach the forest at the outskirt of the city where he would be able to breath again. Civilisation was left behind him and the Red Keep looked so small that if he closed one eye and put his hand where the rocky foundations lay on the horizon, the palace seemed to fit in his palm. A sense of uneasiness lingered but Gendry didn’t have time to consider its nature because he was seized by the burliest men he had ever seen- quite the most unusual view since up until that moment he had been the burliest man he had ever seen. He was gagged, blindfolded, and bound, carried on someone’s shoulder like a sack of flour. He hit the ground several minutes later and was made to stand.
'What is the meaning of this?'
A man’s voice resonated, even though it was just more than a whisper. And rarely had Gendry been more grateful.
'We don't abduct civilians.'
He was freed, the ropes cut from his wrists, his feet, and his face, yet he had the impression that it would not be any easier to escape now. The man in front of him was slim and though he looked younger than Gendry, his eyes suggested he was much wiser than his age. He was standing with the aid of a cane and from the tension of the muscles in his arm, Gendry could see it was with considerable effort. Then, the tallest among the men that had abducted him spoke.
'We do when they look like him. The Lannister's will soon seize every capable-looking man to join their army. We don't need those like him on the other side. We kill them now and we won't have to worry later.'
These words were received with silence. Even the men who seemed to agree with this sentiment stopped nodding their approval when they caught the other man’s gaze. Gendry’s would-be-killer shifted his weight from one leg to the other.
'Very well, Bran, if you won't have him killed what do you suggest we do now that he has seen us, uh? Should we simply let him go? Like that, we let him go straight inside the city. Why don't we just go with him ourselves? It would be much easier to die, in that way-'
'I won't tell anything if you-'
Gendry didn’t get to finish the sentence because two soldiers seized both his arms and made him bend over while the one who wanted him dead gripped his hair and pulled. He got closer and when his face was a breath away from his he said:
'You don't have the privilege of participating in this discussion. Whether you'll live or die-'
'That's enough, Rickon.' Bran took a step forward.
'Or, what? You would slit my throat, brother?'
No one was moving. Gendry wouldn’t move even if he had the chance. The man called Rickon has released his death-like grip on Gendry’s hair and had stepped closer to his brother.
'He wouldn't. But I would.'
Gendry raised his head so quickly that all the muscles in his neck screamed in pained. But he knew that voice. He had heard it before. Decades ago, it had been higher, almost childlike- even if no one would have ever considered it such or said so at the time. And, definitely, not in front of her.
But the woman Arya Stark of Winterfell had become, he did not know. He had known the little girl who had lost everything, who had survived atrocious experiences, and that, occasionally, had had a kind smile and a tart reply for a Southern bastard boy.
'You don't mean to free him, do you? That would be insane, even for you, sister.'
'Oh, we won't free him.'
Gendry’s throat was not working, he wanted to scream, he wanted to tell her that he was her friend, that he was Gendry, her Gendry. He had thought about her so much. He had longed for her, for their friendship, because he thought that somehow she would have understood him. She would have approved of his cunning plan: hiding right under the Lannister’s noses. Her eyes would have gleamed with mischief when he would have told her he was now known to all as Jon Waters, that he took her favourite brother’s name to be undetected.
'He'll be our prisoner. You have never been to King's Landing- neither of you- and I don't remember it all that well. We'll use him.'
She gripped his arm then and commanded him to move. He would wear bruises from her grip more than from the other men’s grip.
When Arya realised she was being followed by her brother Rickon’s soldiers, she stopped and sent them a glare even more deadly than that of Bran. They reprised their walk and moved towards the tents.
The moment they left the crowd of soldiers behind, Gendry finally managed to talk.
'I am Gendry. Waters. Arya, I am Gendry, we knew each other, we-'
'For all the Gods, shut your mouth.'
He was silenced once more and a cold shiver run down his spine. He couldn’t feel the summer heat anymore.
'You were always stupid. Always the stupid one. You. Not me.'
He stopped and stared at her. She stared him back.
'So, you see, I remember well enough.'
He smiled at her. He couldn’t help it.
'Take that smile off your stupid face and keep walking.'
She didn’t smile back but he would have sworn that her grey eyes looked a bit less haunted and bit more forgiving.
Death Comes to Pemberley
I love you - Fitzwilliam and Elizabeth Darcy
Death Comes To Pemberley - Mr. and Mrs. Darcy
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William Shakespeare's A Midsummer Night's Dream
"Lord, what fools these mortals be!" (Act III, Scene ii)
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